I've got a complicated relationship with sleep.
Once I've sunk into it, I relish:
a shift to another dimension,
freedom from daily hassles,
hints of a possible future,
the healing process from illnesses and injuries,
unraveling and reshaping past experiences,
quirky characters and plot twists,
insights that reveal everything as it truly is, and so on.
Yet, every time I lie down in bed with great reluctance.
The thing is, I hate letting go of the departing day.
Remember how tough it is to toss out that worn-out but beloved item? Seeing the wear and tear, your brain gets it's time to part ways. But your very being screams, "No way!"
At that moment, a universal conflict plays out. No matter how tough the day was, it's done, so it's evident. It's already exhausted its unpredictability. We're alive, which means we've prevailed.
But what tomorrow holds is a mystery shrouded in darkness. In childhood, innocence created anticipation for a new day. As we age, it becomes evident that it could be not just a "Good Year" but also an "Apocalypse Now." Solomon said, "He who increases knowledge increases sorrow."
I dream that someday I'll eagerly seek the embrace of sleep again. Not thanks to techniques or pills quelling natural anxiety. I'll embrace uncertainty fully and without reservation. Why?
I will firmly believe that there is meaning and good in everything. It is revealed to those ready to sacrifice the most valuable thing they have.
Sincerely yours,
-Alexander
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